I never planned to stop using and drinking. It just happened through a series of odd coincidences. I was just ready and didn’t even know it.
I didn’t have the day circled on the calendar.
I didn’t stop because I was inspired by the idea of self-improvement.
I had been living with a depth of despair which made it impossible to tolerate my life.
I had become “as willing to listen as the dying can be”.
The rest was up to God.
That’s why I still show up. That’s why I still pray.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.