Every time I learn about someone committing suicide, it touches me personally. I don’t look at it from afar, but rather it brings me back because I was there.
For over ten years I had daily thoughts of killing myself. I felt inadequate, self-loathing, and not deserving of anything good.
Using alcohol and drugs suppressed those feelings, so much that I was physically incapable of following through.
Eventually, I came to the end. My soul was barren. I decided where, when, and how. I told no one.
Four days prior to my planned end, I got an unexpected phone call from an unexpected angel. What followed changed the course of my life.
I have learned that my life is worth something to God, that God will decide when He is ready for it to end.
We are each capable of accepting and receiving God’s Love.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.