I must never forget where I came from and what my life used to be like. I have a “built-in forgetter”, which is fueled by ego and denial.
The denial part says it wasn’t that bad. The ego part says I got here on my own.
Every day I need to remember how soul-less I became, and how I was spared from a wretched existence by the Grace of God.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.
For me, the desire to drink really did go away. When I first stopped, I didn’t think the desire ever would be lifted.
The fear of picking up a drink was constant. Praying, going to meetings and listening to direction on how to stop helped a lot, but that fear made me very uncomfortable.
Then I was told to “Ask God to help you WANT to be sober more than anything else.”
I have been praying for that ever since. It worked. God has never let me down.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.
Sometimes I get into situations where I have to deal with unusually aggressive behavior from someone else. It sure brings out some old feelings which I thought I have gotten past.
Apparently they are still within me. It upsets my inner peace.
My best course of action is to put my hands in my pockets, shut my mouth, and walk away. No “pound of flesh” is worth engaging in a worthless battle.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.