When I ask an addict or alcoholic who has relapsed why they “picked up” again, their reply goes something like “I stopped doing the things that got me clean and sober”.
A better question to ask is “Why did you get clean and sober in the first place?”.
I got sober because I had lost my soul and I wanted to die. I was suffering inside and no substance could ease my pain.
Although a distant memory, I think about it every day.
I’m here only by the Grace of God. I must never forget that.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.