Having to get sober is difficult. In a couple of words, it sucks. When I got sober, the shame, guilt, remorse, and self-loathing were almost unbearable.
All these were feelings that I would ordinarily drink or use drugs over.
I could not get better all at once. It takes time. It takes pain. It takes desperation.
No person could give me relief from those feelings. It takes God’s Help. My suffering, although horrible, has caused me to seek God to guide me away from the Hell in which I was living.
God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.