Daily Missives

I remember hanging on with little hope. I had no idea how I would get through the day. I was told, “One day at a time – one moment at a time.” It worked. I realized that I can get through this moment if I look at only this moment – not the past nor

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There was a time in my life where I truly believed I was hopeless – that my destiny was to suffer in sadness and misery until eventually I would just die. I thought that getting to that end as quickly as possible was the best choice for me. I did not know where or how

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My greatest fear is that I forget how things used to be and how hard it was to get here. If I forget the pain and suffering, it is still waiting for me. I am not cured. If I forget the transformation that I had to go through, I will regress to the person I

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There was a time when my life was spiraling downward, with each day worse than the last. Each day was made worse with the terrifying thought of tomorrow. I don’t live like that anymore, and my outlook on tomorrow is much better. I have faith that if I sincerely ask God for help living a

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I did not stop drinking to please someone else, and I didn’t stay stopped for someone else. I stopped because alcohol no longer provided relief for me, yet I still needed it – even when I didn’t want it anymore. Alcohol and the internal turmoil it caused held power over me like nothing else could.

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After all this time – getting sober, staying sober through all of the ups and downs of my life, watching my friends succeed, or fail, or die – and continuing to trudge through, I sometimes wonder if I should ease up. It’s easy to do. But then I remember that I only have today. Today

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When I was in early recovery, I felt lost. I was trying to figure out how to live without alcohol, which seemed impossible to me. I thought that sooner or later I would wind up drunk, so why bother? I met people who were living a sober life, who cared enough to listen to me

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Sometimes I feel God’s Presence during the course of my day and other times not so much. Sometimes I can go days without really feeling it. It’s kind of a “spiritual funk” that happens where I’m just not feeling it.  It doesn’t mean that God has taken a break. God is always with me. The

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Not only has my life been spared and my self-imposed suffering stopped, but I have been given a life worth living. It didn’t happen by accident. It didn’t happen overnight. It started with desperation. It started with a belief and a trust in God to save me. It continues for me by seeking God’s Protection

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After a long period of time without abusing substances, I can get the sense that “I’m good. I got this.” If I actually believe that, I will become complacent and forget how I got here. I need to remember the life I used to live and the suffering that comes with it. If I forget

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