Daily Missives

So today is the anniversary of my first day without a drink. I had not planned it. I was despondent, sad, scared, and suicidal. I had lost my soul. I needed help. I didn’t know who to ask, what to ask, or how to ask for help. I wasn’t wearing sign. No one knew how

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On this day in 1990, I had my last drink. Being in a blackout, I don’t remember it exactly but I’ve got a pretty good idea. However, I do remember how I felt and what I thought – a true feeling of doom and wanting to end it all. I don’t ever want to feel

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Early in my recovery from alcoholism, I was told to pray – whether or not I thought it would help me. I wasn’t so sure it would work for me. It worked. Little by little I noticed that my doubt turned into faith because there were too many “coincidences” to ignore. God works in my

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Every once in a while the opportunity to help someone is put before me. More often than not it is easier for me to ignore. Going out of my way to help someone takes effort. If I’m being self-centered, I won’t make the effort. The call to help someone else is a call from God.

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When I have a lot going on, my inclination is to rush from one thing to the next.  It’s like I’m “behind schedule” because of the many demands of a rewarding life. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to be a failure. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to fail others. I need to remember

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I can only do so much in one day. As ambitious as I try to be, my mind wants me to do more than I’m capable of doing. Trying to do too much in one day brings me disappointment and overwhelm.  The most important thing for me today is inner peace. If I can begin

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I am living and have been living a life beyond anything that I ever thought possible for me. I have been able to lean into the rough times and enjoy the good times while not always feeling comfortable inside. It’s because I stopped fighting God’s Plan for me and accepted that everything happens for a

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Becoming spiritually-centered requires daily practice. It’s a condition that I can’t just turn on when I need it. If I attend to my spiritual condition consistently, I can be prepared for anything that comes my way. Surrendering my will over to the care of God daily helps me to get the spiritual balance I need.

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I often write about getting through difficult times. As real as the difficulties have been, they become fewer over time. I have found that the more attention that I pay to my spiritual connection with God, the easier my life becomes – inside of my heart and soul. Finding a rhythm with God and with

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Having to get sober is difficult. In a couple of words, it sucks. When I got sober, the shame, guilt, remorse, and self-loathing were almost unbearable. All these were feelings that I would ordinarily drink or use drugs over.  I could not get better all at once. It takes time. It takes pain. It takes

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