Daily Missives

My abuse of substances interfered with everything else and everything else interfered with my using and drinking. I now realize that deep-down I was seeking peace and connection, but I didn’t know how to do that. I had to go down a dark path to find it. If I had not been an alcoholic in…

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I can’t dwell on the mistakes of yesterday. They are in the past. Today is an opportunity to make new ones. Bring on the day!   God, please help me to be ok today. Thank You. Amen.

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I don’t miss the mental chaos and emotional stress which were constant while I was drinking. I do take comfort in knowing that I can handle any situation which used to baffle me.  The transformation in me, from how I used to be, is nothing short of miraculous. Thank God for Alcoholics Anonymous. Thank God…

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A bad moment is just that – a bad moment. If I decide to let it affect the moments that follow – that’s my decision. A good moment has the same effect. That’s my decision too. How I feel about myself is my decision and mine only. Enough good moments make it a good day.…

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For me, picking up a drink will never make any situation – good or bad – better. But I am not immune from self-destructive thoughts. When I am highly emotional, my thinking can go off-course. So, I need to protect myself by centering my spirit as I start each day. Seeking God’s Protection and Care…

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When I get really busy and feel a little bit of overwhelm coming on, my character defects start to come out. I should see it before anyone else, but sometimes I don’t. Asking God to calm my mind is a great start. Allowing Him to do it seems to work pretty well.   God, please…

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I don’t expect that others will always understand the way I think, nor the speed at which I can clutter my mind. My patterns of thinking can race and lead me to irrational feelings and actions. They are symptoms of my alcoholic brain. I have found that others like me get it. That’s why I…

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I used to let other people “rent space in my head”. I let things about other people bother me and drag resentments around like a sled of bricks. It was all in my mind and those people had no idea. I need to remember to “Live and let live.”. I have enough of my own…

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My “developed nature” was to try to solve every problem by avoiding it. I used substances to help me to forget and to comfort me. It worked until it didn’t. When the substances stopped working, the real nightmare came to life. The only way that I have found to stay away from alcohol and drugs…

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“Life on Life’s Terms”… Sometimes life brings disappointments, failures, and tragedies.  Being an alcoholic, my challenge is how to respond. Do I go on a rage-filled bender and drink everything in the county?  Do I lash out at everyone in sight?  Do I destroy everything that I have worked towards? When things are going well…

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